Reality Sets In

Yesterday (Saturday, Jan. 10th) I realized for the first time that my dad did not understand what was going on with him. He has told everyone that he understands, but yesterday showed he didn't. He told me that the assessment lady (Lacy) could help us negoiate his bills and that is why we hired her. He did not understand that we hired her to help us with assessing his situation and to help us with options. Yesterday was the first time during this process that I saw my dad truly down, which broke my heart. He is always the life of the party and telling jokes. I think now his jokes are coming to an end. I am not looking forward to Tuesday, but I have already broken some of the news to him.

The news: He thought the whole time I was talking about moving I was talking about him moving to a different house. He believed that what he needed was a cheaper place to stay. When I told him about an independnet living facility his response was "I don't need one of those. I'm not that bad." When I explained that he had not been paying his bills right and that he was not taking his medication correctly he just sat there. The the reality set in "My whole life is changing." I understand why he does not want to leave. His ham radio is here, the lake we love to fish, his remote control airplanes and his TV. I saw this hawk in the tree when I pulled up today and thought to myself this is one more reason why he does not want to leave.

Thank you all for praying for me and my father during this time. God willing we can get him the help he needs and he will agree to all the recommendations.